Confessions

3/10/2009
I haven't been writing on any of my blogs for a while. Months, in fact. The truth is that since late October and I have been either diagnosed or sick with a nice little range of illnesses and injuries.

At first I thought I wouldn't write about what was going on because I didn't want to focus on it. As time went on, I didn't write about it because I just didn't have the energy to write about it. Since I don't see an end to this, I figure I may as well 'fess up and get it over with.

In September and October, I started having all this pain in my left foot. My bones would crunch, and I honestly thought I had a stress fracture. My orthopedic did two different sets of x-rays on two visits to make sure we hadn't missed one. What he did find was this symptom called "Mulder's click" - it's where bones in your foot that aren't supposed to move actually move enough to make this clicking sound you can hear. And since this is a symptom, that begs the question, "What is this clicking a symptom of?"

[see - I'm too tired to finish this now so I'm taking a break to lie down.]


3/28/2009
Ok, so I came down with a 48-hour vertigo-like virus (yay - I only puked once) and am just now getting back to this. Meanwhile, I've been on a last-minute vacation to the Florida Keys. (Clinton was originally going solo, and I'm smart enough not to pass up that invitation.)

Now we're on a planned vacation in Santa Barbara. Clinton surprised me by making this our anniversary vacation. Our anniversary is actually at the end of August, so we often have conflicts and travel issues around Labor Day. This was much more pleasant - and less crowded.

However, continuing with the health junk, I've gone on an anti-inflammatory for my foot (which KILLED me going to, from, and while we were in Islamorada) plus I have developed an ingrown toenail (don't ask me how - I was wearing Birks) that's been oozing puss every couple days. (Yes, I got a pedicure within a few hours which helped immensely, and while it doesn't hurt so much, it was full of puss again last night.) And my foot still hurts off and on with the click/neuroma junk.

I was listening to Louise Hay's "I Can Do It" affirmations this morning. I am going to love my body through all of this. It will feel good again. I just need to remember to accept, support healing, and not be frustrated. I can do that.